Friday, June 26, 2009

Love can never be measured

Well, lets say ‘How much do u love him/her?’ some will respond ‘ i love u more than anything and i will give the whole world’ some will say ‘ u r my 101%’…it shows that no matter how love cant be measured. It actually depends on individual and the way they give into the relationship, the bond between each other is the most important. No matter how many years or months they are in a relationship, most important is both parties have to give in with each other, meantime communication plays an important role. It takes hard work and It will not work if the opposite side does not want to give in or not ready for commitment. That’s one of the reason why some of us find it hard in search of their Miss or Mr Right.

I found an interesting , yet meaningful quotes by a friend of mine, Master Lilian Lai
www.master-lilianlai.blogspot.com

*LOVE is not a matter of the mind but of the heart, it is A FEELING…ONLY TO BE FELT.* Master Lilian Lai

*True romance are words unspoken with actions uttered in silence…..* Master Lilian Lai

Sunday, June 21, 2009

To move on

Watched ‘p.s. i love you’ last night…its a great movie. A movie about a grieving young widow who discovers her late husband who hav left her a list of tasks revealed in 10 monthly messages that are intended to ease her out of grief and transition her to a new life.

The moral in this movie, i learned to let go and to move on……

I will face the facts that he is no longer a part of my life. Look in the mirror and tell myself ‘ I want to think about what i want and not about him.I’m worth it. ….I’m not the loser’. I believe it will empower myself to move on without him.

That was then and this is now. The ‘better Him’ will appear one day and never have to detach again. It time to let go of the past and to move on with a new life. ‘Yea he is great but not the greatest’… In life, we will always go for greatest for first choice, and we wont go for 2nd choice most of the time.

I will boost up my career, to have plans to do everything i want..and i know i can do it.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Memories


Once i closed my eyes, it appear in my mind…

The laughter, the moments we are together, places we went…and now, someone in ur life will be going through this with you…

The hardest thing is to let go of someone who bring smile to our faces, tears to our eyes, and sometimes both at the same time. Losing a loved one is devastating, what is left with us is our memories. It is the only things we have left after the person is gone. At times, it may be painful to think about , with them…they remains a part of our memory in life…
Sometimes certains things we do, places we go,…it triggers our memory…when it does. we will recall about the moment we are with the person…especially those who left a mark in our heart..just like tattoo…As time passed, once memory is encoded into long term memory, basically – it can be remembered over time or it can be forgotten.

Helen Keller said, “What we have once enjoyed we can never lose. All that we love deeply becomes a part of us.”


Monday, June 15, 2009

love..what is love?

What is love? It is one of the most difficult questions ..

Sometimes i m asking myself, what is love? why will i have this kind of feeling towards him?..why will i feel hurt when we are no longer together? Why love will mostly ended up hurts ?

A break up, divorce, death or abandonment are some of the most painful experiences because of the love we had with them. For me, Love is divided into a wide scope..depending on context, love can be 'fatherly or motherly love'....Look at the relationship between a mother and a child. The mother loves the child unconditionally and it can not be measured at all. A different dimension can be attained between any relationships with the magic of love. Love among family members and friends...often, for those who failed in love relationship, are feeling guilt, hurt and miserable..yet on other hand, for those who found their soulmate will have happiness in it. The meaning of love can change...

Love may lead to changed a person personality..Some say it is false and meaningless.. I realise most of my friends around me, changed their lifestyle and character after a major failure in it..either lost trust in love, hatred, trumatized in relationships. ...it haunted and trigger the memory of the past.. yet, its hurt when we can't be with someone we loved.
And yes, i've lost him...it's complicated between us..yet the truth hurts when he is hiding something from u..n once u found out..it feels terrible...


my heart shatter immediately...

breakdown

Can't play a good songs today.. due to the sudden breakdown in my love life. I doubt there is a link between music, moods and emotions. I read an article and it explain the way music impacts us at an emotional level. The links between melody and the mid indicates that listening to and playing music actually can alter how our brains, and our bodies, function. Yet in another way, music have the energy to heal the emotions...
for example; sometimes we do feel better after listening to the music which suits our moods.

I believe its important for a pianist to have a relax mind without thinking of anything especially when it involved with emotions. Even the songs i played, the rhythm & tunes has blend into the mood i had which is 'dull & dead'...
i will give myself a couple of days for recovery...and get myself back to track!

“Don't ever give up on something or someone.”

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Memories Evoke

On the way to meet my fren, out of sudden trapped in a horrendous traffic jam..the drivers are honking constantly.

hhhoooonkkkk!! honk! honk!!! (it's annoying somehow)....

Why Is Everybody Honking?


I got the instinct of someone tonight...n yeap ! bingo ! once i look at the right, I 'm surprise to bump into HIM with his white coupe i used to ride...it triggers my memories...

*an exclusive memory which belongs to no one else but myself.

I believe, every time we think, write, or talk about an experience, we make even more memories.
No matter how, i told myself to move on, never dwell in the past...even if i bump into HIM... he is no one else but a stranger.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Yesterday is history

Found something that I wrote this when i was 18,

A Moment in Love

In the darkness of the night
Where there is a place to meet you,
And your face is the only star in the sky,
That I see
It’s so enchanting,
When I would only dream we were together,
Holding each other warmly,
That I feel
But the reality makes my heart cry,
To see you coldly turn your back on me,
You’re stabbing a knife into my heart,
That’s hurting me
My heart shattered into pieces of broken glass,
Blood flow ………
into the abyss of despair
As dawn approach,
The star bade me farewell,
I know that for one brief moment,
I had loved…

* lol…I can’t believe i wrote this..
well i believe as time passes,
we will never thought of past memories subconsciously…

Sad memories…
we all have them,
But, as time passes;
Somehow…mercifully,
They wither and are gone, as grass is.

Yesterday is history. Tomorrow a mystery.
Today is a gift. That’s why it’s called the present!
This is special…live and savor every moment…